I’ve always been an advocate for living a life you’re happy with – not how society tells you to live. I was saying “you only live once” way before the YOLO craze. Because of this, it might be the reason why I’m now back in school, why I took the chance to live in Hawaii or Sweden, or why my boyfriend & I said “why not?” and spent two months exploring beautiful Costa Rica. But two days ago I thought I had gone out of my mind. .
Two days ago I did something I thought I’d never do in my lifetime. Something I’ve always thought was for those who were better at it than me. Something that I figured just wasn’t for me, and that was ok. Something that I always thought of those who did it as crazy.
I signed up for a marathon.
I’ve run quite a few 5Ks, three 10Ks, a half marathon – but a full? A full marathon was a whole ‘nother ball game. So, why, if I had always knocked the idea, did I suddenly decide to sign up for these 26.2 miles?
Well, a few reasons, but the most important is . . . I wanted to do something scary. I have been feeling like my workouts have been sub-par lately. I’ve always been (what I call) a lazy runner. I run a few miles maybe once a week. I’ve done those races, sure, but in between them I never seem to keep a regular running schedule. Heck, I barely trained for my half marathon!
The race I signed up for is March 14th, 2015. That’s exactly two weeks after my 27th birthday (twenty-seven!!). I want to always be in the best shape I can be. I always am striving to be my healthiest. This marathon? Its so out of my league. But it seemed like the perfect way to do something for me, right around, what I think, is a momentous birthday – I’ll officially be in my late 20s (WHAT?!). I was terrified filling out that little registration form, and to be honest, I was tearing up as I was completing it thinking of myself finishing this race. Half out of pride because I was doing something so far out of my comfort zone, and half out of fear because I had no idea how I was going to complete all the miles I’m up against – not just at the actual event, but all the training miles leading up to it.
But that fear also was what pushed me to click “Register”. I am very much up for a challenge. I know, for the most part, what I can handle and what I simply need to say no to, and this is something I know – with the right gear and training – that I can complete. But I needed that fear to push me to say yes. Without fear like that, without pushing yourself to your limits, you will never find growth within yourself. And that’s why I did it.
I listened to this podcast on my run yesterday with Robin Arzon – an incredible person, a badass women empowerer, and a serious go-getter. She is a super talented athlete and marathon junkie, but only began running in college after growing up the farthest thing from an athlete. After college, she was a lawyer at a cushy law firm with a comfortable salary, and one day decided it was time to do something she had passion about – running & all things movement. So she left her job out of the blue and began to undo ordinary.
This really resonated with me – undo ordinary. This is her thing, and it got me so excited – by signing up for this marathon, I was undoing my ordinary. This isn’t to say you should right this instant sign up for a marathon or other running race. This is to say that you should find what your heart is calling for. What is it that you are passionate about? What is it that makes you feel crazy in all the good ways? What gets your heart pumping and so excited that you want to drop everything and go do it now?
That’s how I felt when the tiniest idea of running this marathon popped into my head last week. It continued to brew and the more I thought about it, the more I had to have it. So, I quieted my head and let my heart lead. And it led to this.
” There is no passion to be found playing small – in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living. ”